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“Is it okay to call myself gay when I am bisexual? Gay has become such an umbrella term that it feels much easier, but I will stop if I’m not allowed to.”
-Question Submitted by buckybarnesfanatic
Okay, okay, okay, okay. There is a LOT going on here, so let’s take this apart a tiny bit, shall we?
You are ALLOWED to call yourself a giraffe if that is what you want to call yourself. Words, and especially identity words, are incredibly complicated things, and you have to pick the one that fits the way that you feel, period. That might mean not even PICKING a word! It might mean using several words in combination. It might mean telling someone your entire history with identity categories when they ask you how you identify, which I will refer to as the “Kristin Russo Method.”
Let me employ the Kristin Russo Method for a moment and tell you my own relationship with identity terms. Perhaps it will help!
I came out when I was 17 and when I did, I came out as bisexual. That word made sense to me because I knew as sure as hell I was crushin’ on girls and I also knew that I would one million percent still like to make out with a boy (especially if he looked like Brad Pitt in Thelma & Louise, but that is another story for another day and also really makes clear just how old I am!!). That was as far as my reasoning went in 1998, because at that point I was clueless about gender being complicated and not operating on a binary. Are you still reading?! GREAT. So, I came out as bisexual and rocked out with my identity term UNTIL my mom was like UGH KRISTIN IF YOU ARE BISEXUAL WHY CANT YOU JUST BE WITH A BOY and I was like UGH MOM FORGET EVERYTHING I SAID I AM ACTUALLY A LESBIAN.
I legit just claimed that word as my identity only to quiet my mom. Then, I dated girls for a long time and the word stuck (even though it never felt quite right). Sometime later, I went to grad school and learned the word ‘queer,’ and was like oh THIS is lovely, this feels just like a warm coat on a chilly night, gimme that queer identity marker to roll all around in. Kaboom.
BUT THEN (and, dearest buckybarnes, this is really where I am circling back to you), just two years ago, I started really thinking about how I had tossed that word ‘bisexual’ right to the curb without a second thought. The reason I started to mull it all over again was because I was learning more and more about how bisexual people are completely fucking erased in oh-so-many communities! I experienced queer people saying rude, dismissive shit about bisexual people just as much as non-queer people! Oh, and then there was this whole report released by HRC!!! It really got me BUBBLING, let me tell you.
All of those thoughts were enough to make me unpack my own identity all over again, at the ripe old age of 34. I wanted to take back the word bisexual for myself, I wanted people to hear it and see it and have to think about it more and more, and I felt like my own experience could add to that conversation.
So, buckybarnes, here’s the thing. You’re right. Saying you’re “gay” is an easy answer to give to people. And, while you are honest-to-god allowed to do whatever you want (refer to earlier comments on giraffes), I do want to tell you that sometimes the easy answer actually makes things way more complicated for you (and me, and others) in the long run. I just want you to think about that as you go on your own journey with these words and with yourself and your heart and your attractions and feelings… because I wish I’d thought about that before I tossed ‘bisexual’ to the curb all those years ago.
No matter what you do or what you decide, identifying as bisexual doesn’t mean that you have to always give the same answer, and it doesn’t mean you can’t sometimes just say “Yeah, I’m gay,” and call it a day. I have those days, too (in fact, here’s a little anecdote about me pretending I had a boyfriend at the passport office!), and that’s a-ok. You may, find, though, that having people ask you more questions or wonder about the complicated nature of who you are is sometimes way, way more powerful than the alternative.
Have the best night.
6 thoughts on “Can I Call Myself Gay If I’m Actually Bi?”
I was wondering if it’s okay to call myself gay (maybe temporarily) when I identify as bisexual but never had a same sex sexual experience. I’ve been dating guys all my life and I feel like it’ll never work. Every time it ends up feeling more like a great friendship and me not being happy with the whole “we’re boyfriend and girlfriend and sex should be happening” thing… So after I broke up with my ex (we we’re together for almost 3 years) I didn’t really feel like I’ve lost anyone, I feel more like I gained a lot of free time.. I decided that I wasn’t going to date guys anymore until I’ve been with a girl. Because labeling myself as “bi” attracts a lot of unwanted attention from “threesome guys” I’m getting quite tempted to call myself gay for maybe a little while. After getting a girlfriend I could always reassess my sexual orientation identity don’t you think? I do have to be careful though of who I can tell…
I am bisexual, but I have a strong habit of saying that I’m “Gay”. So it is okay.
I found this after my older son and I had a conversation about his sexual orientation. From a young age I always thought he was gay so it was no surprise to me at the age of 12 when he came to me and said he thought he was gay. Now at the age of 17 he identifies as bisexual, though he prefers males over females, but really gets offended when I say he’s gay. He immediately retorts that he is bisexual and not gay. I prefer the term gay, as the original poster stated it’s more of an umbrella term. But my son said he’s also open to dating trans, which I suppose would make him more of a pansexual but he really hates that label!
Jenna: Depends on the gender of the trans person. It’s it’s a binary trans person (as in, trans man or trans woman) then that doesn’t make him pan bc they are men and women. If it includes nonbinary people, then it’s up to him to decide what label fits him best. Pansexual can either mean attraction to all genders or that gender plays no part in attraction, and bisexual is defined by the community as attraction to either two or more genders or one’s own gender and other genders, and sure, it can mean only two genders if the person who chooses the label defines it that way, but that’s only for said person and it doesn’t change the meaning said by the community. There’s also polysexual, which means attraction to multiple genders. Neither of this labels nullify nor invalidate each other. It’s up to him to decide which one fits him best, and he can even choose multiple ones (I identify both as panromantic and as biromantic, and I’d be cool being called polyromantic, I just don’t wanna use it bc poly can also mean polyamorous, which I guess I kinda am, but I still find it confusing to pick that label for myself), but you don’t pick a label for him, and if he doesn’t identify as pansexual or gay then please don’t call him that.
what about dyke? im bi and sometimes will refer to myself in the third person as a dyke… and heres the thing. i know that word is sort of iffy at best, but i also know some lesbians use it as proudly as the term lesbian itself. and… this is gonna sound weird… but i like the word. i like the way it rolls off my tongue (heh) and i like the way it looks in print. idk how to explain that.. some words are just like that for me. anyway i called myself a dyke one time in front of other people and got huge gasps and scandalous looks but no one really wanted to explain why? anyway any advice on the use of this word would be helpful. i googled and found nothing, this is the first page i found.
also, buckybarnes, i’d love to read your fanfic
Sometimes, although I identify as bisexual/pansexual, I use gay as an adjective for myself. For example, while flirting with a woman, I might say something like, “Sorry for smiling at you so much, I’m actually really gay”.
I don’t feel like saying “I’m actually really bisexual” has the same meaning to it in that context, and I’m not really comfortable right now with calling myself queer because I’ve been on the receiving end of homophobic/transphobic bullying.
But I really don’t want to risk making people who are “gay all the way” feel uncomfortable or undermined. So I’m not sure if it’s okay for me to say I’m gay, especially as I can sometimes “pass” for straight.