"Is it weird to Want to be androgynous? I like walking the thin line between genders. I like when people can’t quite tell because then they’re getting me, not male-me or female-me. I know a lot of people switch completely, but does anyone ever want to just bind the top without surgery or anything on bottom? Is it weird that I want to be so in the middle that no one can tell where I started? Or that I want to answer male or female with YES?"
- Question submitted by Anonymous
Not at all.
There are soooo many people sitting at their computers right now wishing they could feel the way you feel. Or at least, understand their feelings and that it’s okay to feel that way. Lots of us sit in our own skin for years and years and can’t figure out exactly what makes us comfortable, but YOU, YOU LUCKY BASTARD, you have figured out what makes you comfortable and you’re owning it.
There might be some people who tell you that you’re doing something “wrong” because they think you should “chose”…those people are not being fair and they are not right. I want you to know that in your heart of hearts, bc people telling you that you’re wrong over and over can really bring you down and you don’t deserve to be down-broughton…
I’m making up words here, but the point is, you are who you are and who you are is awesome and keep on being you. #boom You absolutely are not alone and you absolutely are not weird.
Wouldn’t it be hilarious if I started this post, “Girrrrrrrrrrrl, you are so not wrong.” Hilarious and probably insulting, but like… the thought of it made me laugh. WHATEVER. EVERYONE GET OVER IT.
Aaaaanyway. Fuck to the no, that is absolutely not weird, Andogynonymous. The thing with gender is that, regardless of how you look at it, it’s troubled as fuck (see: Judith Butler’s “Fucking Gender Trouble” #gradstudentjoke). The things that inspire us to identify as “girl” or “boy” or in between are primarily socialized – and the fact that you’re like, “I don’t want to fit it here or there, I want to me ME, and this is who I am,” is wonderful.
It is near-to-impossible to escape gender completely, but it is completely possible to challenge gender in your everyday life – or to just be who the hell you are and see where that lands you. Some people consciously reject gender and make decisions specifically because they view the system as totally troubled and they are like, “Take THAT troubled system, I don’t have to answer to you.” Others, like yourself, are most comfortable identifying in a space between or outside of gender – it is what they feel on their insides and what makes the most sense to them. Some, like myself, see the trouble with gender and meditate on it, but love to wear heels and get their nails painted and are like, “Well, whether socialized or not, I damn well like the way this feels and looks, and that doesn’t mean I can’t think about what it means while expressing myself the way I like most.”
Bind your top, answer to he and she, and smile when people look at you twice because they just “can’t tell.” The bottom line, as Dannielle already said is that you know who you are and you know what makes you feel comfortable in your skin, and that is fucking awesome.
Rock out with your cock out.
JUST KIDDING AGAIN YOU GUYS. #badgenderjokes